steigenundsteigen:

I think I’m going to delete this, deactivate my Facebook, and shut off my phone.
It sounds like a good idea.

Back years ago we started talking on AIM. Talking to a stranger lead to talking as friends then best friends. We grew so close from talking once a week to every day after school, and till we fell asleep on the phone with each other. We became best friends, going into high school we became a couple. A cute cheesy couple. Only for a few months of freshman year, and after that broke we only kept in touch every few months to “pleasure our needs”. Every time that happened, you always told me how you loved me. But the next day it would mean nothing. As we were still growing up into late high school the alcohol started talking late at night every few months to tell me how much you still loved me and never forgot, but as the eyes grew tired and the next morning reached and hang overs beat the mind, denial would rise. As if nothing was said the night before. 

We went our separate ways and saw other people. New people each and everyday.. 

We graduated from high school.

Getting closer to a year from where we crossed the stage we now just hang out and grab a coffee. I break the news that I’m moving and now you confess it all. I’ll never forget.. You couldn’t look at me, but when I finally opened you up to say what was on you mind you said this:

“I love you. I’m going to miss you. You were my first girl best friend, my first kiss, my first girlfriend, my first love. You were the girl that opened my feelings up to love others.. You weren’t my first love. You are my first love. You always will be. I’ll never forget you. “

Why does it not surprise me now that it was just another lie..